"Grief is the fabric of selfhood and beautifully chaotic." -Max Porter
Since being diagnosed in 2018 with multiple myeloma, an incurable blood cancer, I've watched my life pass before my eyes in a slow-motion loop. I've died many imaginary deaths while my body has been bombarded with poisons intended to stop the cancer. In January 2021, in the depths of the Covid pandemic, the treatments stopped working. My cancer levels were spiking.
In February, I worked with performer Ryder Cooley to create this loose narrative of loss, grieving, and healing. In real life, Ryder uses hirudo medicinalis leeches to treat her circulatory problems. Leeches were among the first treatments used to treat multiple myeloma shortly after it was discovered in 1844.
The five stages of Grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.